Thanks for all the comments.
I guess I don't feel as bad today. One of the things which sharply
pulls me back into focus is seeing how positive and happy Hubby is
with his life. He's gone through more than I have lately and yet he
loves everything and everyone and he's always so excited about life.
I gotta be more like him.
I guess everyone goes through a 20-something crisis. I should know -
this isn't my first one! It's helpful to read all your blogs though -
it stops me from being so introspective and makes me realise that
everyone's going through all sorts of things. You're all so
interesting and I really, really enjoy learning about your lives.
As for the crisis feeling - it's not just a 20-something thing, is it?
Shit is going to keep happening in my life and coping with it is part
of being a proper grown-up.
I'm learning a lot about why people worry and how it affects them and
what makes people cope in such different ways in stressful situations.
So two things:
1. I need a holiday.
I haven't had an extended time off work (ie. more than two working
days) since I got married in Feb 2004. I need to unwind, breathe,
relax. Maybe I'll take some time off after I get my PhD results and
submit the final thing. Hopefully by then, other worries will have
settled too and I can truly relax.
2. I have to realise that life is only going to get more and more
complicated. Gone are the innocent years - of things being easy and
simple and having no real worries. So much has happened in our lives
lately and if I let the constant stress drive me down, I'll
self-destruct. And that's not me. I've always been a joyful person.
I must learn to use my off-switch.
4 comments:
There's an off switch? I so wish there was an off switch. I can't ever seem to find mine.
You really do deserve a holiday. Two years is a very long time not to have a whole week or two off.
I don't seem to go through those sort of funks as much anymore, being in my late thirties. Part of it is severing all contact with my family, so I don't have people trying to drag me down constantly.
You definitely need a vacation... somewhere beautiful and relaxing with your sweet hubby. I think that would do wonders for you. =o)
The finacial stress can really eat at you and with all the recent changes you have had to deal with along with the health problems you are prime for a break or a break down.
If nothing else, take a friday and monday off for a nice, long weekend!
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