So we had it confirmed today. Hubby has testicular cancer.
What a total shock. Fuck.
I mean, it was always at the back of my mind that he could have cancer, but to hear it said to us made it all too real.
I didn't know what to say, we were both sitting there in the doctor's office crying and crying and not really taking anything in.
I know it's highly curable, I know it has a good prognosis, but there's always that voice in the head that says "what if he's in that 5% of people who don't survive?" or "what if it spreads to the other testicle?" or "what if it spreads further?" - This is with us for life now.
Look, I'm trying to stay positive - especially for him. The poor thing was so confused when he was told he needed his testicle removed that he asked if they were going to put it back in.
I can't bare to even think about something bad happening to him. He's such an angel, such a good person, I hate to see him suffering like this. He's so scared and teary and, well, so am I.
Anyway, the operation is on Friday.
And we'll know a week later about what follow-up treatment he needs - it depends on the type and severity of the cancer. Hopefully it's all contained and he wont need chemo.
Please pray for us.
8 comments:
Fu.ck
bloody hell.
Wishing you and mrjezzy all the best. You'll be 95%ers for sure.
Ginchy
(who is always on email at completely inappropriate hours if you need someone to rant or cry at)
Truly...hoping things work out for the both of you. It may sound trite, but the love you have for each other and the support you provide will be crucial.
My thoughts and prayers are with you both through this incredibly difficult time. God bless..
Awwww...I guess I'm feeling sorry for your hubby in that even though I am CONFIDENT that he will survive it, psychologically for a male having to lose a testicle...awwww...that's got to be rough for him. YES of course one can do the job as well as two, but that doesn't mean you don't grow fond of your spare. It's like if I had breast cancer and had to lose a breast...sure, I'd be happy to be alive and fine, but it would seem to affect my vision of my femininity until I could absorb what had happened. I suspect he will need/want a lot of reassurance about him still being a dead sexay beast who is just as masculine as before.
Of course I am praying for you all. This has been such a stressful year for you guys. Sigh. I'm relieved that if he had to have any cancer at all, though, it's the most curable form of cancer we know of. And I'm SO happy you guys caught it!!!!
Both of you are in my thoughts and prayers.
My sister is coming up on 10yrs of battling b-cancer...your hubbie will do the same--fight and win! We'll pray for you here in Illinois.
My thoughts are with ya both! I'm sure that everythign will turn out well!
Fuck! That was the esact word that came out of my mouth when I read the first line.
Jezzy I know how feaking scary this is and I know right now there is not a single word that can make this not as scary.
Praying. I promise.
Jezzy ... I feel like SUCH a schmuck. For some reason, I thought you weren't posting anymore ... or not for a long while, or SOMEthing. I don't know how I got this idea in my head, but I haven't stopped back in ages and now to read all this ... WOW.
My heart goes out to both of you ... I still need to catch up to date on the reading, I skipped all the way down to here so I could read from the beginning of this horrible event.
Be strong for him. Be strong for you. You'll both get through this.
(I feel AWFUL that I haven't been back here)
Please forgive!
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