Walking contradiction

We had good news from hubby's oncologist yesterday. His tumour markers are normal and the CT scan shows nothing. Actually, the words the radiologist used was "grossly normal". I love that nomenclature - it's almost as if they're disappointed at not finding anything interesting!

The oncologist said that if he can stay that way for the next two years, there's next to no chance of the cancer coming back. He's got good odds.

On a completely different note, I'm loving this season of Big Brother.

The Uplate show (or "Adults Only", as it's now called) never fails to shock the hell out of me. It's hilarious. I keep thinking there's little I could see or hear from a bunch of 20-somethings that could shock me - but the words that come out of these peoples' mouths, knowing that they're on TV, I just roll around laughing. Where do they find these people?

My favourite has to be Katie, the lovable 20 year old blonde virgin with a pierced clitoris. And then there's Camilla, the moody girl with the bad skin who brought not one, but two vibrators into the house with her. Or Jamie, the gay farmboy who says he misses boobs and who loves eating out girls, but thinks that he connects better with men and enjoys sex better with them as they are stronger and can do more things. Hmmm.

It's really funny, they're all a bunch of walking contradictions (as Anna was described by Elise) - but I guess we're all a little like that. We're all walking contradictions.

None of us really make sense.

Not if we try to understand each other's behaviours. We don't work like that. We're essentially pretty irrational no matter how we justify what we do and think and feel. At the end of the day, we pretty much all want the same things - to be loved, understood and truly known, to be appreciated by those around us, to have recognition for our achievements, to have the basic necessities out of life plus a little more than those we compete with... But we're ruled by thoughts and feelings that we have no real control over. What we want and what we need and what we long for can end up being such different things that it can drive us crazy.

Anyway.

Before I get too deep with my thoughts, I'm doing something really cool. This computer has a 21 inch monitor and a digital TV plug-in - so right now, I have two windows open - one with live digital TV and the other with my blog. And I'm also downloading free music using Limewire. Pretty cool, huh?
A whole lot of my favourite pastimes at the same time.

Except that there's one favourite pastime I can't do in front of a computer - and no, it's not what you're thinking you dirty-minded people - it's curling up in bed with a good book.
And that's what I'm going to do right now.